I loved you more than anything in my life.
I would have given up my dreams for you...
How stupid is that!
But I was so madly in love with you... No I still am.
I want to forget you, I want you out of my head.
But you were my everything and now that you are gone I have nothing.
I know I still have my friends and family...But that's not the same.
With you I felt safe, loved, and worth something.
Or was that just my imagination?
Did you really love me?
I can't answer this because it would be bias.
I wanted you to love me so I BELIEVED you loved me because that's what I wanted...
Why couldn't you just keep your promises? Why couldn't you have been faithful and honest? Why the lies and the betrayal?
I gave you everything I had! I gave you so much!
I tried so hard to make you happy that I allowed my self to suffer just to see a smile on your face....
But you never did the same for me... you never tried to make me happy and would always avoid me when I was sad.
WHY DO I LOVE YOU!!!
You never treated me like I was your everything...Maybe I just wasn't your everything...
Even after everything you did I still wanted us to work out.
But I wouldn't allow myself to be used and lied to anymore.
I told you what the consequences to your actions would be...
It was your choice what the ending would be...
You chose for us to be apart...
I didn't choose for this to happen. I never even wanted this to happen!
I wanted a future with you!
Why couldn't things have gone differently?!
I love you so much.... It hurts me so much to love you....
I shouldn't love you though because you don't deserve it.
You put me through so much pain....
WHY!? I just don't understand why........
Nicholas Ryan-Matthew Mast... I hate that I love you...
