I don't hear his heart beat
I don't heart him breathing
I don't feel his heat
All I feel if alone
Cold, lost, confused
Maybe I should just learn to be without him by my side all the time.
But you see, my soul needs him by my side.
His presence is what makes me happy.
I have never wanted someone by my side so badly...
Yet I wish I didn't feel this way.
It is weak. I am weak.
I don't need him!
I can live without him! I can....
All I need is my self and my few friends.
Or maybe I do need him. More than I know.
I won't accept that as the truth though.
He can't have that power over me...
No ones can...
Maybe it's better that he always isn't by my side.
Maybe it's a good thing that I don't get what I expect.
Maybe I'm just telling myself lies.
