I just wanted to feel like I belonged to someone.
I didn't want to be alone anymore.
But was it worth it?
Instead of making me feel needed he made me feel suffocated.
I felt more alone with him then I did by myslef.
Everyday would be hell for me.
Everyday I would cry.
The urge of cutting would just grow and grow.
Many would wonder "Why are you still with him?"
I, to this day, have no idea.
I thought I loved him but I didn't
I was just using him to sustain my own needs
Don't think of me as a selfish person
Because I just wanted to be happy
Yes, I did use him but I didn't make him feel like he was nothing
He did that all on his own
I treated him well, I am the best girlfriend anyone could have
But he didn't deserve that.
He didn't deserve my kindness.
I wish I never met him
But there's no point in trying to change the past
It just can't be done
At least he is out of my life now
And I am so thankful for it too
I can breathe again!
I CAN BREATHE AGAIN!
It feels so amazing to be freed of him
I should have done this sooner!
I don't love you Nicholas, I don't think I ever did
But I did care for you
That's over now though, you don't deserve to be cared for.
Thank you for being out of my life! :)
[Time for a new start]
