I didn't know anyone and was so scared to talk to anyone.
I got lost more then 5 times!
I really hate when I go to new schools... I just want to stay in a school longer then 1 year.
The kids at my new school aren't the nicest.
Most of them don't even notice me.
I mean I don't really mind it. Just wish they didn't act so mean.
Im just like every other person after all.....Well kinda.
So far I don't have many friends. The only people that talk to me are the Hispanics.
They are nicer then what I expected.
I'm glad that at least someone will talk to me.
Hopefully I get more friends soon. And good friends not those mean stupid ones.
Yesterday at school I had a really hard time controlling my emotions.
I had such a hard urge to cry but I didn't want to cry in front of people....
I guess it was because someone threw something at me during lunch and 12th period....
I hated when people are such morans and think that stuff like that is funny.
I'm emotionally unstable and have bipolar depression so when stuff like that happens I cry and get angry.
Its a problem I have.
And the fact that I have human phobia doesn't help....
I really need to get over that fear.
It even affects how I do my work at school.
In honors english I was too scared to talk to my partner about our assignment.....
He probably thinks I'm stupid or useless now....
Oh well I guess.... the truth had to be found out sooner or later....
I wish I wasn't so worthless and stupid sometimes.....
I really hate who and how I am....
But this is me.... Why should I change for other people!
It's not fair that they should even think about changing me!
If they don't like me then I don't care.... I don't need them as friends anyways....
Why can't people accept how others are.... No one is perfect after all....
